#IVF 2, baby Ritz, JLT

Nesting ?????

Off late I am having this weird aversion to dust or scatteredness or dirt in my house. I have no idea what to call this sudden urge to clean everything except nesting. Though according to norm nesting only appears in late second trimester or third trimester and definitely not this early. To my defense i ¬†think it is a different form of nesting, like getting my house ready and clean before my mom comes to stay with us because if i don’t do it now then i will have to fall according to her wishes which ofcourse will lead to lot of discord and unpleasantness. So over the last few weeks i have managed to clean out an entire cupboard full of sarees and dumped them in the loft over head so that bay ritz’s grandparents can have enough place to keep their regular cloths as well as winter wear since they will be frequenting now to our place. I cleaned out a part of MR’s cupboard so that we can decide to keep baby clothes and baby things once she is out. I got all the nook and cranny of the house cleaned of any dust and fur that pista has left. This is an on going process of course and have to go for it monthly till i am 35 weeks and then ofcourse every week so that we are relatively dust free.

The place of our residence is a huge upcoming area in bangalore as a result of which there are massive constructions happening all around us. As a result the house is forever covered in dust and i cannot leave any window open w/o developing a migraine by end of the day. The only good part is all the plots around us are covered and by the time baby ritz decides to come we will be ready!!!

Pregnancy wise I am doing ok. Relatively better than few weeks ago. A baby center friend of mine has very kindly loaned us her doppler and i have been shameless using it every day w/o break sometimes even twice a day just to hear jammy galloping away. The weeks are passing slow despite my sudden burst of organising. Actually this has been a double edged sword, while 16th week of my pregnancy i spent jumping up and down and getting the house organised. 17th week was going in self doubt of whether i did too much a lower tummy ache didnt help.It had been almost 4 weeks since my NT scan and even though i heard heartbeat daily i still kept thinking about all the possibilities that could go wrong. So to cut a long story short around 16 wks 4 days i worked my self up and convinced me that something was wrong. Result we rush for a scan and unscheduled gynec appointment. Thank god for india and its medical structure i could get done both the same day a. Baby rit was absolutely fine in the scan, we could infact see different parts of her anatomy like brain, stomach, kidney, bladder and spine  . The radiologist almost did like a dry run to anamoly scan of 20th week and the gyane also said lower tummy cramps are to be expected because of uterus stretching. Baby was measuring ahead by 2days and measuring 6 ounces!!!

We go in again in 3 weeks for final anatomy scan which ofourse still freaks me out, but the intermittent scan has helped. I am seriously tempted to request my gyanec for a scan every 4 weeks as it will be important for my sanctity. Symptoms wise any symptoms of pregnancy has more or less disappeared except the ocassional gastric pains and heartburn. I am still on progesterone so my boobs continue to be tender. The thing that has increased is mood swings, i am on progesterone shots twice a week and the nurse at the clinic messed up my shots and i ended bleeding and having a wound which led to another meltdown and i kept crying for 2-3 days on that because i was in pain with my ass swollen unable to rest or sleep. Leaving that aside i have been tearing up or getting angry for smallest of reasons!!! thankfully none of the wrath has been directed at MR atleast not too much! but MR has asked me to strictly keep away from all the forums which have likely chances of fools posting on them. He also asked me to refrain from being ‘ supportive’ on whats app in the groups. Any conversation with parent units to be restricted for not more than 10 mins.

Both of us are amazed that we are almost 17 weeks pregnant yet wonder how is t possible that we still have 23 more weeks to go! time is passing at a really slow pace.